Friday, November 30, 2018
Friday, November 16, 2018
Wednesday, November 14, 2018
all tore up
can't find my mind
don't eat stuff off the sidewalk
it's just that song
the way I walk
Posted by ellie at 10:42 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2018
Oh, I'm feeling a tad horrible. Dunno if its germs or just me. I almost fainted when I was chopping up some onion in the cheese spread.
At the moment the boyfriend and I are having a challenge on getting the kitchen cleaned but I'm thinking of pinafore aprons from his old shirts. All the videos I have found on the subject are kind of borning. Maybe I just need to go back to bed.
Monday, November 12, 2018
Why is there a certain sadness in November? The cold seems to bring with it a chill to the bone these days. Last weekend, I pulled something in my leg when I was carrying in the groceries. That was the last thing I expect, yet it messed my whole week up. I felt so old and brittle.
Luckily, I've been using BALANCE (an essential oil remedy) it's at least helped my well being. Maybe not all my stiff moves. Yet, I have kept moving and that has helped the most.
I'm glad Lady GaGa brought up "depression" in her long speech (recently at some award show). We don't like to talk about it, yet each of us has to cope with it in some form or factor. It could be your mood or the thought that evolving doesn't mean you'll be the self you were at a younger age. Even in those younger years, there were probably sad thoughts, too, from time to time.
I thought of the time..it was fall, I was probably third grade and a friend from the city came out to visit from the city while I was living with the grandparents. She was so excited being in the country. She wanted us to go for a walk. And I felt like it was good to be in her company since she had a way of making everything so fun. Even if it really wasn't, but I didn't feel so frightened.
Then, her mom came over the hill from which we walked. She was in her car. They needed to get back to the city. Suddenly, I was alone and I remembered all the things that frightened me. Wayward coyotes. Rattles snakes. Even sharp rocks. Why had I come this far with her? Maybe we weren't really friends at all. It seemed she was pleased that I would have to stay and she could go back to her comfortable suburban home.
Yes, at that time, I didn't really have any friends. I was having to stay at the grandparents while my parents figured out their own life. She didn't know how many days I spent alone. It wasn't until then I felt she needed to be entertained. It was apparent she didn't want my desolate existence.
But we don't want to bring each other down. So I had to calm myself with a song. Oh, no one was listening. Probably, a lot like now.
Sunday, November 11, 2018
Friday, November 9, 2018
I was just texting a friend and said, "There are just not enough Saturdays in November." In two weeks or so it will be Thanksgiving, or is that Black Friday? Oh, the holidays are here and I just want to cuddle up with a good book and stay warm.
It was frightfully cold for a Veteran's parade. And now, even watching a football game on TV gives me the shivers.
I need to clean up my room and do some sewing, but even that I want to put on hold.
Yes, its a lazy weekend, and I have to take advantage of it.