Wednesday, September 26, 2018
The 30 day Writing Challenge-Your fears
I dunno if I can really write about it. It comes and goes.
You know, some days, its like I got it together. Then I space out and wonder, where do I go when I'm finished up here on earth.
I guess we all have that feeling. But it can rattle you. I might as well be orbiting around the earth, sometimes.
Then come those fears, am I really man enough to take care of Sara. I mean, I barely take care of myself and it makes me sick some time to know I could do way better.
Still, life is so tiring and you end up thinking, I've been here an awfully long time. Can I really change for the better?
Toss in some panic attacks at every turn and yeah, I scare myself sometimes. Like, what down that dark corner? Even old ladies can freak me out. Yeah, and even strange middle schoolers can give me the shivers.
A little kid almost bit me once. It was like the strangest thing. Right in the grocery store.
There are days I don't want to face the world, but I know I have too. And I've gotta be thankful, the days haven't really been that bad after all.
Yeah, I can over think it.
Posted by ellie at 12:00 AM