God, I don't know what I did. I didn't mean to upset Amanda.
I know she doesn't think I understand, but maybe I do. I just feel bad for her. The meds take some time. She has to give it some time.
Maybe she's just mad at herself. Maybe she knows she gave up. But then again, maybe its been like this for a long time. Even with Rosie.
I don't want to be that way. I don't.
I mean, I really really want Eric's baby. I hate to admit it, but I just saw myself having a family with him. The first time I saw him. And I really don't do things like that. I don't. And then when it happened, I tried my best to not let it make me too silly. But I'm so happy. Really, I am.
And Evan. There is no resentment there. None. I was thrilled to see... see this infant that makes me think so much of Eric.
I just hope things keeping going well for us. All of us. Even Amanda.